I have lived in Italy for ten years and many of the people I love are quite far away, this ongoing global pandemic makes seeing them impossible; this impossibility connects them to many other people in my life who are unreachable for a different reason. Part of becoming an adult, for me at least, has been a journey to understanding loss. It terrifies me to look at family photo albums and realize most of the people in there are dead; but, I am also then inclined to explore what that means, why I feel the way I do, to think more deeply about who these people were. As I grow older, I look more and more like my mother, a quick glance in the mirror brings her back to life. This video is part of my ongoing investigation into the creation of self—the intertextual, grafted, remade, plastic self.