Shaista

So yeah, these people came, and my grandfather said, my lovely grandfather, who lives still in my heart, loved me so much. I was the first grandchild. So he said, “What are you looking for? Just go and buy the cakes and the party things, there is a dolly's birthday today.”

It was actually a lot of tension of Hindus and Muslims in subcontinent. It wasn't before the British colony. But when, oh you will know that I'm so sorry to say, I live in Britain is bad, because this little island has a reputation wherever they go. When they leave, the whole country's gone like an ash somehow. What it is, I don't know. It’s history is telling me, I'm not.

My father was very upset with me. My mother was very upset with me. I had so many, I was very beautiful, very well-dressed, and very modern women. And, of course, so many proposals for the family, and then the proposals going away because I become something else.

He had this idea that if I can marry to a knowledgeable woman, then my life would be changed. And I can't live with these women, I need to marry to a knowledgeable women. So, his mother was going Pakistan to do shopping for her niece's wedding. So he said, I like to go with you. And I like to find a woman for me, who is knowledgeable. 

He became more and more abusive, because he could lose himself. So he started hitting me, with the chair, with the things and that.. and I was tolerating that. So when you tolerate something, you're giving your hands to someone to come on, that's my neck - strangle me.