I’ve had the privilege of getting to know many literary characters and writers during this semester of Mosaics I. They have taken me on journeys I will not soon forget. Like anyone, these characters were flawed. They all had weaknesses. In a few cases like the Yellowbirds and Metamorphosis, the characters followed a path to self-destruction. In different variations, all of the characters, Gilgamesh, Candide, John Bartle created their own uphill battles.
Have you ever witnessed someone you know self-destruct? Have you ever seen someone that was once so full of life begin to lose who they are as a person? We are all self-destructing by nature. Everyone has insecurities. We doubt ourselves regularly. We doubt our abilities to perform certain tasks. We question our own knowledge. We do things, such as eat fatty foods or smoke cigarettes, knowing they can harm the body. We hardly ever forgive ourselves for our mistakes because they’re always in the back of our minds. We often blame ourselves for things that could not possibly be our fault. It almost sounds like we hate ourselves. Do we? There is no sense in making life harder than it already is by hating ourselves. It would be much easier for all of us to accept ourselves for who we are and the things that we’ve done. But, the possibility of individuals loving themselves entirely seems so far out of reach. We are all expected to conform to societal standards… whatever they may be. It is no wonder why all of us are slowly self-destructing. We hardly have any other choice.