Hastayım Yaşıyorum is the first part of an ongoing research project on Turkish-Armenian oud master Udi Hrant Kenkulian (1901-1978). Thinking through modal structures in Ottoman and post-Ottoman music, the work inhabits both the oppositions and entanglements inherent in terms such as makam and taksim: simultaneously a coming together under one roof and a partitioning. Ultimately the project is a reflection on the migratory patterns of an Armenian and the manner in which the resonances those patterns produce may be historicized or silenced.